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well, my holiday ended abruptly around 4th hari Raya. while people are busy making open house and entertaining guests, i cried to say gudbye to my family and at 4.30pm on the 4th Raya, i was standing in LCCT waiting for Eddie to pick me up. i was officially and forcefully home!! :-/
i met Eddie at LCCT and she looks happy. considering her happy moment now in a relationship wif her bf, moving to the next step of a closer relationship, PLUS her sister, Yan engangement a day away, she has all the reasons to be happy. congrats to them both.
in brief, i spent 2 days at Eddie's house in Sg Buloh, celebrating Yan's engagement ceremony, and the three of us, Me, ila & Eddie went for dinner together (sumthing that the three of us started to miss so bad), were all meant so much to me. i was exhausted, yet..i was also happy to be there and to see u guys :-)
here,s some of our photos during those 2 days. one more thing, if anything good happens to me after tis..emm..sumbody might get 'sepersalinan' from me. haha..
- Location:sg buloh
- Mood:
jubilant
i fly back to kota kinabalu on 26th Sept and i arrived home around 12 in the afternoon. guess what was there in kk? it was so damned hot!! scorching hot.. however, i was so happy that my soul was flying faster than the Air Asia flight and it was waiting for me, bouncing back and forth, waiting to re enter my body back (which was still in the flight), and started the last length of our journey home together! huhu.. ^_~
mak n ayah were waiting for me and we went straight home. i cant wait to smell the sweet fragrance of my home, to see all the lovely cats that we own and to just simply be there, in my HOME..
mak n ayah were waiting for me and we went straight home. i cant wait to smell the sweet fragrance of my home, to see all the lovely cats that we own and to just simply be there, in my HOME..
some might think i am too emotional in describing the whole things about my home, but for somebody who was last been home was last year Hari Raya, i guess, this is fair. i love to be home..
well, my very first plan was to break our fast together sumwhere special, and this time around, i'll pay for all. huhu. since i'm working now, i feel a bit proud to atleast be able to feed my family specially my parents with my own hard earned money. that's it..the pride and satisfaction. i bet all kids will feel this way when the time comes. believe me!! then i booked our table at the Le Meridien Kota Kinabalu. sadly, this Raya, my second bro is not around, he's at the other side of Malaysia, giving courtesy call to our family there. that leave only 5 members of our family here, in KK. so much and so, he'll be back on the 2nd Raya. the reason: couldn't wait to get his very first 'duit raya' from me ^_^
back home, i played around with the new kitten, there were 4 of them and the mother and also helping my mum cleaning up the messy kitchen, since they made some BBQ party last nite before my bro left for Pahang. then i went for sleep and when Jiji wake me up, everybody were ready for breakfasting, except me!!
after all, the breakfasting was superb! i love it and i know my whole family enjoyed that evenin'..
as i said before, i love to be home ^_^
till then, chiow..
- Location:kota kinabalu
- Mood: bouncy
today, me & my 'unit' mates went for 'bebuka' sumwhere in Alamanda, Putrajaya. went to the Johnny's to be exact and we enjoyed the food too much, i should say! we were full. plus, i am happy for the whole day today since my new freezer finally arrived home. haha..that's explain why i bought lots and lots of drinking waters from Carrefour. just to put it all in my new freezer!!
well, back to Johny..i still remember, it used to be one of my bestfwen fav shop to eat. she then introduce the place to us, although i did not agree that the steamboat is 'superb'..(the steamboat is lousy and the portion is too little..) but other foods are good. i love the Thai chicken rice and the TomYam soup. marvellous!! eating there today, made me think of her (Eddie) and Ila. what a memory to marvel..
emm..for the past few days, people around me are restless, including me. today is 15 september..and tomorrow is 16 sept. obviously people are anticipating for sumthing..to all the politician, 16 september might be an answer to all..
chiow..
- Location:ofis lo..
- Mood:
hungry
yup, look around and see the world in a different way today?
why? because things might not work the way it always be!!
what i mean here is our political situation. personally, i think today, this few months back and in the near future, our society is in a time of unrest. racial topics had been brought up easily by silly cockhead people who didnt used their senses and brains before they uttered their 'racial' statement. i'm not sure whether they did these for the benefit of certain 'person' or just to stir racial chaos in our society. but one thing for sure, all these cockhead people should stop or the government must put a stop on them!! they are creating a new wave of hatred in our country, and for all this while, we have been watching without doing anything!!
personally, a harmony society that we have been living in for nearly 51 years meant a lot more precious to me than any political agenda hidden beneath any mind of any person today!! so please, stop the racial slur and accept everybody as we used to. we wouldnt want the bloody 13 May 1969 to repeat itself nor we want any sort of racial conflict to happen in our beloved country, Malaysia.
apart from that, the utmost important task is to develop the country, increase the income of people and work together to shield our country from any sort of harm from outside. NOT to create problem in our country, to compete with each other for power, to set aside the welfare of citizen in order to achieve personal means and to absolutely do stupid things that later will ignite another long chain of racial turmoil in our country.
as a citizen of Malaysia, i believe i have all the right to say that.
to the date of 16 september, we'll see whats happening these few weeks..
hopefully it wouldnt be like old Malay says, "..yang kalah menjadi abu, yang menang menjadi arang.." so, if u've got brain, think deeply.
emm..that's it for today. i might sound totally serious about this, but the truth is, i am really serious about this. just consider this as an insurgence of my rebellious thinking *_*
chiow..
why? because things might not work the way it always be!!
what i mean here is our political situation. personally, i think today, this few months back and in the near future, our society is in a time of unrest. racial topics had been brought up easily by silly cockhead people who didnt used their senses and brains before they uttered their 'racial' statement. i'm not sure whether they did these for the benefit of certain 'person' or just to stir racial chaos in our society. but one thing for sure, all these cockhead people should stop or the government must put a stop on them!! they are creating a new wave of hatred in our country, and for all this while, we have been watching without doing anything!!
personally, a harmony society that we have been living in for nearly 51 years meant a lot more precious to me than any political agenda hidden beneath any mind of any person today!! so please, stop the racial slur and accept everybody as we used to. we wouldnt want the bloody 13 May 1969 to repeat itself nor we want any sort of racial conflict to happen in our beloved country, Malaysia.
apart from that, the utmost important task is to develop the country, increase the income of people and work together to shield our country from any sort of harm from outside. NOT to create problem in our country, to compete with each other for power, to set aside the welfare of citizen in order to achieve personal means and to absolutely do stupid things that later will ignite another long chain of racial turmoil in our country.
as a citizen of Malaysia, i believe i have all the right to say that.
to the date of 16 september, we'll see whats happening these few weeks..
hopefully it wouldnt be like old Malay says, "..yang kalah menjadi abu, yang menang menjadi arang.." so, if u've got brain, think deeply.
emm..that's it for today. i might sound totally serious about this, but the truth is, i am really serious about this. just consider this as an insurgence of my rebellious thinking *_*
chiow..
- Location:putrajaya
- Mood:
irritated - Music:matahari-agnes monica
i did 2 surprises actually tis 2 months. one in july and the other one in august. the one in july was for my fwen's bufday and the one in august was for my parents' anniversary.
i bought cakes for both of the occasion and i delivered it to them by way of surprises. haha..
the one in july was sent to his residence, sumwhere in putrajaya. while for my parents, i made a cake booking with deana (she's making beautiful n delicious cakes in kk) and she helped me sent the cake to my home in kk. thanx a million to u deana. it wouldn't be a surprise if u were not there to help me and my siblings.
the one in putrajaya was bought in Puchong and i designed the cake myself! i like the cake and i hope he likes it also. while for my parents, the cake is absolutely delicious ( so as my bros told me) and the decorating was supreme!
i bought cakes for both of the occasion and i delivered it to them by way of surprises. haha..
the one in july was sent to his residence, sumwhere in putrajaya. while for my parents, i made a cake booking with deana (she's making beautiful n delicious cakes in kk) and she helped me sent the cake to my home in kk. thanx a million to u deana. it wouldn't be a surprise if u were not there to help me and my siblings.
the one in putrajaya was bought in Puchong and i designed the cake myself! i like the cake and i hope he likes it also. while for my parents, the cake is absolutely delicious ( so as my bros told me) and the decorating was supreme!
a cake for my fwen in putrajaya.
(it was a tiramisu cake with choc. decoration) 
a pink anniversary cake for my parents..
a card made by deana for the occasion. thanx deana! like u said, from KL to Indah Permai with love :-)
apart from that, i feel happy to do both of the surprises and atleast i gave them a bit of joy on their meaningful days ;-)
afterall, i'm glad to bring smiles on their face..
cheers!!
There comes a time in life
When you have to let go of
all the pointless drama
When you have to let go of
all the pointless drama
& the people who create it
& surround yourself with
people who make you laugh
so hard that you forget
the bad and focus solely
on the good. After all,
life is too short to be
anything but happy..
& surround yourself with
people who make you laugh
so hard that you forget
the bad and focus solely
on the good. After all,
life is too short to be
anything but happy..
tertutup sudah pintu,
pintu hatikuyang pernah dibuka waktu,
hanya untukmu
kini kau pergi dari hidupku
ku harus relakanmu walau aku tak mau
berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
tak ada lagi cahaya suci
semua nada beranjak, aku terdiam sepi
dengarlah matahariku
suara tangisanku
ku bersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
ucapkan matahariku
puisi tentang hidupku
tentangku yang tak mampu melakukan waktu
pintu hatikuyang pernah dibuka waktu,
hanya untukmu
kini kau pergi dari hidupku
ku harus relakanmu walau aku tak mau
berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
sejenak luluh bergeming menjauh pergi
tak ada lagi cahaya suci
semua nada beranjak, aku terdiam sepi
dengarlah matahariku
suara tangisanku
ku bersedih karna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
ucapkan matahariku
puisi tentang hidupku
tentangku yang tak mampu melakukan waktu
- Location:putrajaya
- Mood:
sad
emm..i did lots of crazy things tis whole month and now i'm suffering the aftermath of it.
i guess a normal bufday wish is OK, but a further bufday wish plus the cake is a bit celebrative. (if there's any valid English word for it!)
disregard of how bizarre people might see me doing all tis silly silly things, i dun care. seriously, i dun give a damn if people see me in a different view. because tis is what i should be doing long ago. just cross my fingers and hope that tis time, its not that late yet..(if there is 'tis time')
ok, tired of speaking in riddles, i resume my lifestory back. well, i had 3 days courses on IP at Hotel Istana last week. as to that, i didnt attend my syariah classes for 2 days. meaning to say, i have to come next week, by hook or by crook. despite of the fact that my cousin is going for a journey 'balik kampung' to Alor Setar, i definitely CANNOT come along!!
statistic day is a day away and i've finished my 2 IP.haha..i did it yesterday. that leaves me with another 4 fresh IPs. emm, sumthing to dechiper later...
i;m moving in to Putrajaya nextweek. and im moving out my things tonite from my cousin house. then i have to figure out where to find money to support my ever predicted life! what a mess, faa..
speaking on love, i dun think im eligible enough. it turn out to be, that everything and anything that i adore will go away from me. evidence? see my bleeding heart nowadays. you can even see through it! and, maybe im not the one that he's been searching for, or else he's a gay. thats why im now leaving the rest of the case to God to decide. if it meant to be, be it. if it doesnt meant to be, then still let it be..
like some used to say, so little time, so much to do..
yes, within such a short time, i have to do wonders..
yes Faa..you have to do wonders..do it now. as if tis is the last time you have the chance to do it!!
chiow..
i guess a normal bufday wish is OK, but a further bufday wish plus the cake is a bit celebrative. (if there's any valid English word for it!)
disregard of how bizarre people might see me doing all tis silly silly things, i dun care. seriously, i dun give a damn if people see me in a different view. because tis is what i should be doing long ago. just cross my fingers and hope that tis time, its not that late yet..(if there is 'tis time')
ok, tired of speaking in riddles, i resume my lifestory back. well, i had 3 days courses on IP at Hotel Istana last week. as to that, i didnt attend my syariah classes for 2 days. meaning to say, i have to come next week, by hook or by crook. despite of the fact that my cousin is going for a journey 'balik kampung' to Alor Setar, i definitely CANNOT come along!!
statistic day is a day away and i've finished my 2 IP.haha..i did it yesterday. that leaves me with another 4 fresh IPs. emm, sumthing to dechiper later...
i;m moving in to Putrajaya nextweek. and im moving out my things tonite from my cousin house. then i have to figure out where to find money to support my ever predicted life! what a mess, faa..
speaking on love, i dun think im eligible enough. it turn out to be, that everything and anything that i adore will go away from me. evidence? see my bleeding heart nowadays. you can even see through it! and, maybe im not the one that he's been searching for, or else he's a gay. thats why im now leaving the rest of the case to God to decide. if it meant to be, be it. if it doesnt meant to be, then still let it be..
like some used to say, so little time, so much to do..
yes, within such a short time, i have to do wonders..
yes Faa..you have to do wonders..do it now. as if tis is the last time you have the chance to do it!!
chiow..
- Location:my office
- Mood:
awake
whoaa..whats up with the headnote? yup! my life is messy now.
in a way, i'm struggling to arrange my life accordingly. rite at this moment, nothing is arrange yet. not a single matter.
first, i have to settle my house. i planned to move all my stuff yesterday, but since my cousin is having this enormous junk of furniture to be moved out also yesterday to her new house, i have to let her take turn first. and when my turn came, i was running out of time. i have to go back to office and the rest is history! i did not move any of my many many things and i have to arrange another new trip with any 'lori' available. damned!!
here goes my 2nd prob. i've been car pooling with my fwen. but starting from tis week, she's having quite a busy week and she couldn't carpool with me. i left with no choice other than to hire my own chaffeur..who happened to be my cousin! she's the one who picks me up nearly everyday tis week and obliged to send me to work, also nearly everyday. actually, i can foresee that my fwen is no longer available to carpool wif me. besides, she'll be moving in to a new house, not the same house as me. so, offically means we are not carpooling anymore. she does not saying it yet, but i guess its coming. nevermine that, i understand and dun worry, i'll find ways to cope wif it. apparently to myself, i have to constantly hiring my'chaffeur'. big problem is , most of the time my cousin doesn't have fix schedule. she might be in Shah Alam this moment, she might be in Puchong the next moment and she might as well be in KL the next time u call her! so, like i used to do to other people who are close to me, i've burden her with my problem and i am depending 100% on her, same like i am depending on Nab. girls..i'm so sorry..couldnt help it!
ponder on the above matter, i simply think, the best way to settle tis lodging problem is by having driving license myself! so, i'm going to find any driving school near Puchong and learn how to drive. how incapacitate i am at tis moment without the driving license..
if i can drive, i definitely buy my save car, MyV-Black in colour. haha..until then, license is my first priority. then only i am depending on myself.
then, class + work problem. i have to divide my precious time between doing my works and attending syariah class every Saturday. to add up a new twist, i have to attend extra class on Sunday tis whole month to 'ganti' classes during bulan puasa. emm..i have to configure how...
having said all that, i'll stop for now. i suddenly realize i have tons of workload to do.
rite now, i dun feel happy. i feel like i've trapped sumwhere, my life is a mess.
hopefully, i'll find my way through all tis..
and not to forgot, today is my fwen bufday. a very happy bufday to him. may all the best of luck be with him and i cannot say more coz i've said it lastnite. quite a long wish to him, he said to me lastnite.afterall, its ur bufday, so enjoy the moment!
to him, sumthing might happen today. what? wait & see!
till then, chioww...
in a way, i'm struggling to arrange my life accordingly. rite at this moment, nothing is arrange yet. not a single matter.
first, i have to settle my house. i planned to move all my stuff yesterday, but since my cousin is having this enormous junk of furniture to be moved out also yesterday to her new house, i have to let her take turn first. and when my turn came, i was running out of time. i have to go back to office and the rest is history! i did not move any of my many many things and i have to arrange another new trip with any 'lori' available. damned!!
here goes my 2nd prob. i've been car pooling with my fwen. but starting from tis week, she's having quite a busy week and she couldn't carpool with me. i left with no choice other than to hire my own chaffeur..who happened to be my cousin! she's the one who picks me up nearly everyday tis week and obliged to send me to work, also nearly everyday. actually, i can foresee that my fwen is no longer available to carpool wif me. besides, she'll be moving in to a new house, not the same house as me. so, offically means we are not carpooling anymore. she does not saying it yet, but i guess its coming. nevermine that, i understand and dun worry, i'll find ways to cope wif it. apparently to myself, i have to constantly hiring my'chaffeur'. big problem is , most of the time my cousin doesn't have fix schedule. she might be in Shah Alam this moment, she might be in Puchong the next moment and she might as well be in KL the next time u call her! so, like i used to do to other people who are close to me, i've burden her with my problem and i am depending 100% on her, same like i am depending on Nab. girls..i'm so sorry..couldnt help it!
ponder on the above matter, i simply think, the best way to settle tis lodging problem is by having driving license myself! so, i'm going to find any driving school near Puchong and learn how to drive. how incapacitate i am at tis moment without the driving license..
if i can drive, i definitely buy my save car, MyV-Black in colour. haha..until then, license is my first priority. then only i am depending on myself.
then, class + work problem. i have to divide my precious time between doing my works and attending syariah class every Saturday. to add up a new twist, i have to attend extra class on Sunday tis whole month to 'ganti' classes during bulan puasa. emm..i have to configure how...
having said all that, i'll stop for now. i suddenly realize i have tons of workload to do.
rite now, i dun feel happy. i feel like i've trapped sumwhere, my life is a mess.
hopefully, i'll find my way through all tis..
and not to forgot, today is my fwen bufday. a very happy bufday to him. may all the best of luck be with him and i cannot say more coz i've said it lastnite. quite a long wish to him, he said to me lastnite.afterall, its ur bufday, so enjoy the moment!
to him, sumthing might happen today. what? wait & see!
till then, chioww...
- Location:ofis laa
- Mood:
anxious
My heart feels heavy today. I’ve learned for many times these past few months in my life that separation will come abruptly, unplanned, unprepared and in the end, it leave us numb, lost and speechless. We also left alone, to weight back everything that happened before, but we never had chance to repeat it back, to amend it nor to at least say something that we missed saying it before. People just left and we just here, alone all over again.
I loose him for so many times. I lost him in my junior years, I lost him during my senior years in uni, I lost him again during LLB, then I lost him when he started working somewhere quite afar from me, then I lost him again over times, nearly a year. After all the separation, I managed to catch up, but to realize that I lost him all over again, these times, he left the service. And rite now, somehow, I cannot help to feel very insecure of loosing him all over again. I cannot think of any reason anymore to loose him, for all the worst separation had happened to me. Still, the insecurity is always there, hanging and waiting to strike back at me..
- Mood:
silly
